for the past two years, NFTs had been a đ¶goddamn vampiređ¶
they bled me dry of my energy, my time, and my money.
enough was enoughâŠit was time to break up.
ALPHA â
I watched people smarter than me and more financially savvy lose their shirts with NFTs. when guys like Franklin went down, I should have known that I stood no chance.
yet I continued to try. the next trade would finally be the one that gained me generational wealth. I could feel it.
I wanted to believe.
as what comes before any breakup, you try to look at the positive and look back on the good times you had together.
âthey make me feel good. and they have a great family.â
the mental gymnastics are wild.
I lived a lot and learned a lot from NFTs. I made friends online. I had a real sense of community on Twitter. I put myself outside my comfort zone and was rewarded for it sometimes.
and for a while, that was enough. but something had changedâŠand now NFTs were toxic for my well-being â ïž
BETA â
to be clear again, it was my faultâŠnot NFTs.
I hate when people donât take accountability for things.
every decision I made in NFTs was my own: I signed those transactions in my wallet. I held that NFT for too long. I sold that other NFT too soon.
it didnât make living with my actions any easier though.
every day I had to look in the mirror. I had to tell my wife that I lost another hundred bucks gambling on the latest meta.
slowly, I realized that NFTs stopped bringing me joy. thatâs because I had tied my self-worth to how successful I was as an NFT trader and a writer.
âŠand my newsletter was not where I wanted it to be.
GAMMA â
300 subscribers? pathetic!
I had been âbuildingâ my subscriber list for 2 years and I had only that many?
I knew people who built lists with thousands of subscribers in just a few weeks!
here I was hacking away, writing every day for 2 years. and all I had was a little over 300 subscribers to show for it.
you know what they sayâŠcomparison is the thief of joy.
now I look at my same subscriber list and am so grateful that 300+ people wanted to read what I had to say!
even after I didnât send an email for almost 1 year, my newsletter from last tuesday only resulted in a couple of unsubscribes! people still wanted to hear what I had to sayâŠeven after I abandoned them.
it seems crazy that I felt BivNFT was this huge failure, but thatâs how low my self-worth was at the time.
(appreciate all of you who are still subscribed and still reading)
DELTA â
one day in April, I finally gathered up the courage to do it. I broke up with NFTs cold turkey. no Twitter, no trades, no listings. I blocked them and deleted their number from my phone.
it was just be for a few weeks I told myself. me and NFTs were âon a breakâ
I went and touched grass. I took my daughter to the park (being unemployed has its perks).
the nice thing about a breakup is that it gives you space to work on yourself again.
I realized I was always attracted to the digital marketing aspect of NFTs.
I had experience in that space, but learned I also had some hard skills there too. I reworked my CV and started applying for digital marketing jobs.
on the side, I started working on building a business of my own. my mother-in-law and a friend of mine needed new websites. so I built them some.
for the first time in two years, I was motivated by something other than NFTs. I was inspired helping people improve their online footprint.
I soon found an actual paying job as a digital marketer. then, I got my first paying client for my digital marketing agency. things were (finally) looking up.
but manâŠNFTs sure were fun back then. maybe I should text them and see how theyâre doing?
to be continuedâŠ